Saturday, November 13, 2010

Weekend in Utah

So, I went to Utah last weekend for the Mae concert, and it was such an incredible weekend. I can't even explain, so I'll just let you watch a video explaining Saturday night...
P.S. I promise I did not use the Lords name in vain, the sound just didn't pick up the SH at the end of my gosh...

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

Just Thinking Aloud

Sometimes, I have nights… and days where I get really frustrated with the people around me. And then I realize that often times my frustration is completely my own fault. My expectations of others are what results in the disappointment, hurt, or anger I feel towards other. I’m angry because I am being selfish, because I want what I want. I need to change that and realize that I’m going to be okay, and that in five minutes, things will be different. I can handle pretty much anything for five minutes. It may not be better or worse, but it will be different.

Sometimes, I also forget that I’m actually really happy and that nothing that happens to me can change that! I’m happy because the Lord loves me and because he allows me the freedom to choose how I want to feel. Unfortunately, every once in a while, I start to forget that I’m happy and get caught up with what is going on in the moment. I often lose track of how I want to feel all the time, by listening to how something else makes me feel in the moment! How foolish of me! I should never let my emotions be determined by anything but myself because I let know if I’m choosing with a clear head and sound mind, I’ll choose the way the Lord wants me to feel.

Life is about learning. And growing. And becoming better. For a long time I kept telling myself there were things to fix, things that needed to be gotten rid of. How self-deprecating! I don’t need to be “fixed.” Fixing something is the means to an end! I can ever end my weaknesses, they are there for a reason. So, now? Now I tell myself that I need to learn to do things better, I need to learn to be better because if I’m learning there is always room for change. If I am learning there is no expectation to be perfect, I am required simply to master things one small step at a time. You know what else is the amazing thing about learning? You NEVER have to stop.

“I must learn to love the fool in me the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries” 

“The problem is not that there are problems. The problem is expecting otherwise and thinking that having problems is a problem.”

-Theodore Isaac Rubin (Both)

Sunday, October 31, 2010

The Uncoordinated Damsel in Distress

 Tonight I was sitting in my bed, contemplating whether or not I wanted to blog, while eating tootsie rolls. My bed is amazing. It’s about as high as the average counter and it’s so comfy and big and it has an enormous brown comforter on it that I love! Well, suddenly, one of my tootsie rolls rolled off my bed! Ironic, I know. Well, I leaned down off my bed to grab it when, as I was trying to get back up, I realized that I was right at that point where you can’t get back up, but you also can’t really just slide off. If I had tried to slide off, my hip would have nailed the edge of my side table. SO, wilts everyone else in my house was asleep, I was dangling precariously from the edge of my bed. I was stuck! Naturally, I started cracking up which made staying where I was quite difficult. Eventually I managed to claw my way up my comforter safe and sound as you can see that I am quite alive and telling you all my story. Boy, my future husband is going to have his handful… and LOTS to laugh about! I just thought I would share in my own personal entertainment.

Haha! That is all :)

Have a wonderful night and I hope you all had an amazing Halloween!

Saturday, October 30, 2010


There is much talk of surgery around these parts. We're all praying that my mother doesn't have to have shoulder surgery because of the Calcium deposits in her shoulder (you can pray for her too if you want!). And my Father just got his knee surgeried on today! (not a word, I know, but I'm going with it) 
Funny thing though, my Dad is a horrible patient. He doesn't like to listen to the things the doctors tell him, such as no walking or putting weight on it for a little while. Silly dad!
So, after all of the preamble...

I was standing in my kitchen tonight, right after my mom and I had just rebuked my dad for walking, while my mom and dad headed to the neighbors for a halloween party; my mom was dressed as a nurse and my dad as her patient. Perfect, right? like whoa. As they were heading out my Dad was by the front door and my mom was at the garaged door and my Dad yells to her,
"How cold is it outside?"
and my mother yells back,
"Oh goodness, you're fine. You don't need a coat." and then leaves out the garage, leaving my Dad to manage the front door all alone.
A few seconds later I hear,
"Gosh dangit! Stop doing that!... whoever keeps leaving the screen shut when you close the door, STOP IT!"

Yes.. You are correct. My father crutched himself right into the screen....

I love my family.

P.S. pictures of my thrifty finds coming soon!! 

Thursday, October 28, 2010

So Domestic!

I want to be crafty. 

The only problem with being crafty is that you have to have the cash and time to do the things you want. AND, you have to be willing to shop around if you want to save on the cash. But, I really want to do the projects I have in mind and looking through crafty blogs has not been making resisting any easier. I'm going to do it!

 I'm already knitting a scarf. That's a step in the right direction, isn't it? I'm about half way through, but I haven't been as diligent as I could be with it.  My goal is to finish it in... 10 days from today. Unfortunately, my knitting has not been enough to sedate my need for going forth and creating so I have decided I'm going to take the time to teach myself to sew. Ambitious? Perhaps. But, that's what Youtube how-to videos are for, right? I am going to go out shopping today with my lovely friend Michelle (after I go to the dentist, joy) and we are going to a bunch of thrift stores to find things I can teach myself to alter. WIN!

I will report back on my findings.


Monday, October 25, 2010

The Rocking Chair

Here are some photos of my rocking chair. I figured I should take some eventually just to be sure I have some record of it :)

Isn't it just so inviting?!

Sunday, October 24, 2010


It’s been raining all day today, the kind of rain that will drizzle for hours, that casts a blue glow around the house. This is the kind of rain that seeps into your bones; the kind of rain that washes out the old and brings in the new. And it’s the kind of day that makes you really think about your life, not to feel good or bad about it, but merely reflective.

I have spent a great deal of my time since coming home from church in my old green rocking chair in the corner of my bedroom with my window open, knitting away to the rhythm of the rain. My mother cradled us in that rocking chair on nights when we couldn’t sleep. I love it. It’s a gliding rocking chair and there’s a point that it hits when you rock back just far enough and balance there that it locks in a recline. That’s probably my favorite spot in the whole house, curled up in a blanket with a good book or a set of knitting needles and an old classic.

            I’m in the middle of reading Atlas Shrugged and I like it very much. The characters are fascinating and I’ve learned more about trains that I probably ever will again. It’s amazing to read about characters that are so different from yourself. I always find myself wishing to develop characteristics like theirs; the passionate dedication, the poise with which they hold themselves, the lack of concern for other’s opinions, even sometimes the ability to be so… certain. But then again, they are written to be exactly that way.

Books have taught me that even in the worst characters there is something to gain by knowing them. And in books, sometimes, you know the characters better than the people you know in your own life. You know their thoughts and reactions, what makes them happy and what makes them sad. If everyone came with a book describing them… can you imagine? I’ve always wondered if I would like the character my life would present me as if my life were a book…

I love October, and I love the drizzle that comes with fall. Mmmmm Sweater weather, hot chocolate and a need to feel and be as cozy as possible. There’s nothing better.
At least…not until next season… and the next… and the next…

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Do you ever...

Do you ever have moments where it’s really late at night and you’re doing, reading or watching something that makes you think, “holy moly… what am I doing with my life?” even though you totally know what you’re doing with your life, it’s just ONE thing that hasn’t quite worked out for you yet. And then you sit back and complete your thought with, “I need to write a song about this but I can’t because it’s midnight and everyone else in my living space is sleeping?” No? Is that just me?
Well… there ya go. I need to change something. Or just stop wanting everything to work out and be happy with what is…. Hmmm. Probably both. 


Thursday, October 07, 2010


Quotes are one of my most favorites things. They can make you smile, make you think deeper, make you dream and sometimes make you want to cry. It is astounding what a few choice words can do to touch your heart. I'll probably end up posting quotes a lot, but for now I have two today. 

The first was posted by my friend Aubrie and I LOVE her. She is one of my favorite people. She's such a sweetheart and sent me this one at a pretty inspired time, if I do say so myself :)

Our Father in heaven needs us as we are, as we are
growing to become. He has intentionally made us
different from one another so that even with our
imperfections we can fulfill his purposes. My greatest
misery comes when I feel I have to fit what others
are doing, or what I think others expect of me. I am
 most happy when I am comfortable being me and
trying to do what my Father in heaven and
I expect me to be.
I have given up seeing myself as a flawed person…
Giving this up has freed me to embrace
 and rejoice in my own manner and personality
in the measure of my creation.

Somewhere, somehow the Lord "blipped the message
onto my screen" that my personality was created to fit
precisely the mission and talents he gave me.
Miraculously, I have found that I have untold
 abundant sources of energy to be myself. But the
 moment I indulge in imitation of my neighbor,
I feel fractured and fatigued and find myself
forever swimming upstream. When we frustrate
God's plan for us, we deprive this world and
God's kingdom of our unique contributions,
 and a serious schism settles in our soul. God never
 gave us any task beyond our ability to accomplish it.
 We just have to be willing to do it our own way.
We will always have enough resources for
being who we are and what we can become.

-Sister Patricia Holland-  

and two I heard during last semester at school... I don't remember when.

Every person who lives in this world radiates light, which affects and influences every other person in the world.
The radiance of the light that emanates from our countenance is determined by the choices we make, and is a powerful force in human relationships.
The Savior was conscious of that reality. Whenever He came into the presence of an individual He was conscious of a light emanating from that person's soul, and which was mirrored in his countenance. He knew the behavior and conduct, and the choices a person had made because that behavior and those choices were reflected by the radiating light in one's countenance.
My dear brothers and sisters, we must make nobler choices. We must not encourage vile thoughts or low aspirations. We shall radiate them if we do. Every moment of life we are affecting, to a degree, the life of every other person with whom we may come in contact, and who comes within the sphere of our influence.
Every person is affecting every other person who lives. We cannot for one moment escape this emanation, this radiation of light that emanates from our countenance.
Life is a constant state of radiation and absorption of light. To exist is to radiate light; to exist is to be the recipient of light. And we choose the qualities we permit to be radiated by the light within us, determined by our behavior, and by the choices we make.

-David O. Mkay

Pretty powerful stuff right? I love it. 

That's all for now :)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Stuff I've Learned This Past Week...

So, I thought I'd take the challenge from the blog of my friend Kyli Larson to write about everything I've learned this week.

1. Sleep Deprivation does things to you.
I know I know, obviously right? But you see, I've never had any serious effects from it. I don't get loopy unless it’s been more than 72 hours, I don't get crabby, and I have never fallen asleep at the wheel or anything of the sort. But as I was running on less than 9 hours of sleep in the last 3 days, I got home from church after subbing for primary, and was going to watch a movie when I realized I was REALLY SAD. Not just a, oh it’s been a long day, sort of a sad, but just straight up depressed! Which, at this point, in my life is pretty unusual. I'M in control of my happiness, but this time I couldn't control it. So, I went to bed, took a 4 hour nap, and woke up as dapper as usual!

2. Being single is not a difficult thing to be.
It might be a difficult problem to deal with emotionally, but staying single, the act itself, is not a hard one to accomplish. Haha Trust me, I've been doing it for a while... *sigh*

3. I have an incredible Mother that people love and trust deeply.
I already knew this, but it is reconfirmed on a regular, almost constant basis. Plus, I get the privilege of looking (as everyone says) JUST like her! And, I'm grateful for that because she's a babe.

4. Tin foil dinners are AMAZING. Enough said.

5. Procrastination is foolish.
It's also stressful, time consuming in a way you never anticipate, and makes everything worse. Including your work and mood.

6. Making new friends is wonderful!
I love people, and learning about them, loving them for who they are and being able to serve and make people happy is awesome. I'm so glad the Lord didn't put me on this earth alone, because I would probably never change or become a better person. I'm also grateful for new friends that set a good example for me.

7. There's nothing quite like spending time and talking with old friends.
When you can just be perfectly yourself, and they love you because of and in-spite of it. When you can talk about anything that comes to your mind without worrying about how they'll react or think! It's an amazing thing. Family is the same way, they're the oldest friends I have.

8. I would know if someone had been in or was in my house if they moved anything in my kitchen.
I came home from church today, thinking that I was home alone, and realized that the cereal on the counter had been moved. And the funnies had been folded up and replaced by the main section (same locations almost exactly, mind you) on the table. I froze and started yelling, "HELLO!!! Who is HERE?!"
My dad groaned from upstairs. Apparently he was home sick and had just come down for something to eat. I will admit though, I was a wee bit proud of myself for noticing.

9. Group dates are great :)
Especially when they involve awesome people, singing, and bowling... all at the same time. :) gotta love it!

10. When your friend goes to China and then comes back, you WILL be happy to see him.
I promise.

11. The General Relief Society Broadcast was AMAZING. I have such a great love for President Thomas S. Monson. What an incredible man, to have the ability to invoke love from millions of people that have never met him. I am excited to one day sit down beside him and talk with him, whenever that may be.

That's all I've got for right now... Haha I'm sure there's more but I can't think of it.
Life is great. Conference is going to be Awesomespice (as always), and it's this coming weekend!
You are all wonderful people, Carry on :)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

An Unexpected Answer

"What if it's not enough?" she cried
while down upon her knees
"I try my hardest everyday
and still don't feel at ease.

"I know I can be doing more,
but dear Lord, tell me what.
I've opened all the doors I can
but now they all seem shut!"

She was kneeling at her bedside
as she gave this humble plea.
Her heart was full of anguish
and was longing to be free.

She knew God loved her dearly
and had faith in all he'd planned
but she knew that she must choose herself
to follow his command.

But she was at a turning point
she knew not what was next
she wanted to do what was asked of her
but was entirely perplexed.

"I'll give up everything I have
so I may better choose the right,
I want to be all that I can,
I want to follow in the light!"

"I hope someday to be like him,
my brother, savior, friend.
Help me to follow in his way
so I might achieve this end.

"He's patient, kind, long suffering;
he gave his life for me.
The very least that I can do
is what Thou asks of me.

"The problem is," she whispered,
"I'm not sure of what to do
but, to be like Christ I know for sure
I must give my will to you."

She ended her pray with a quick amen
and climbed into her bed
and followed promptings day by day
with that prayer running through her head.

She started helping others out
their burdens became her own
and she loved each person as herself,
let them know they were not alone.

Because it gave her joy
She helped people in distress,
and soon her prayers were different
she stopped feeling so depressed.

"Help Billy, he is sick in bed.
And Sarah also has a cold.
And poor Aunt Jane just broke her hip!
I know she's getting old.

"Make sure she knows I love her
and I'll do the things she cant.
I'll cook and clean and paint her nails
and tell her she's the greatest Aunt."

Soon she started to realize
all her problems were forgot
once she started serving
she had all the love she'd sought!

So she continued on her way
as merry as can be
"because," she thought "the Savior taught,
come and follow me."

She heard not to long after that
a prophet's admonition,
"Forget yourself and go to work!"
and smiled, for that was her mission.

- Elisabeth Crawford